Tao to be a Messianic 3

When I was 8, I was bullied because of my ugly look.
I was a Christian.
I prayed everyday.  At that time, somehow, I was feeling some existences that were protecting me... I felt it very vividly.  Since I had no friends at all, I was always talking to that "someone".
And I remember that "someone" told me, "Don't believe what they say.  They have no idea what they are doing.  You are a princess of the purple hair.  You will be the bride of the King."  At that time, I said to that someone, "My hair is black not purple..."
One time, I was beaten again, and felt that someone was gone.  I was so sad and cried "Please come back!  Why have you forsaken me?"  I think I cried for 2 or 3 hours.

My mother put me in an English language school.  At that time, it still was a rare thing.  But I hated it.  It was twice a week routine.  For me, it was another addition of misery because I thought I was stupid.  Again, I had no self confidence.
And I was kind of right.  I was not good at English, at all.

After that several hours of crying, I felt very light.  I turned on the TV and watched a program.  And in that program, there was a scenery that showed an English letter as "BABY"... and I pronounced that vocally right there.
I could read "BABY" and I felt, "I can speak English"
Since that day, I speak fluent English.